What
You Deserve
By Hope C. Clarke
It was just
sickening, watching him saunter into the living room with
the stench
of another woman's essence adhering to his clothes. He smiled
broadly as
he approached his wife, ready to falsify the events of the
day. His name
is Taylor Grey, age 38, with a very promising future as an
attorney.
His marriage is falling apart, but he doesn't know it because
he's too busy
burying his head between someone else's skin. Could he be
more careless
than entering his home with the embrace of another woman
still clinging
to him? Something as simple as a shower and some added
cologne would
have covered it up, but if men had a brain, it would
consume them.
"Hey, honey,"
he sang jovially, catching her by the waist and pulling
her into his
disgraceful stench. "You won't believe what happened
today." He
started, releasing his wife from his grasp so that she could
relish in
his tale. If he had bothered to look at her face, he could
have noticed
that she was the least bit interested in his normal BS. Of
course, Taylor
being self absorbed, neglected to notice the change in
his wife.
Stephanie,
his wife worked only part-time for a small pharmaceutical
company. She
endeavored having her own Public Relations company. Her
bachelor's
was in marketing with a Master's in public relations. Thus
far, she hasn't
been able to get it off the ground, but her spirits
hadn't dampened
as the five clients she service, make up for the income
deficiency
of her part-time job.
By no means
was Taylor pulling the wool over her eyes. She was well
aware of his
infidelity. Three years is all it took for her husband to
become a dog.
Just three conniving, deceitful years. Weekly, she
accepted his
peace money; really it was the money to keep the house
running, the
normal stuff, like food, clothes, useless entertainment,
etc. Stephanie
considered it peace money, because the sight of it kept
her from putting
a bullet in his hind-part. Her eyes would twinkle like
diamonds when
he placed a thousand dollars in her hand, every single
Friday - without
fail. That's right, she thought, without fail, because
the day he
comes in without it, he can kiss his "A double S" goodbye.
Stephanie fabricated
a smile. "Tell me, what happened!" Her display of
enthusiasm
was astonishing. At times, she even fooled herself. His lips
bobbed up
and down as he spoke, telling her some crazy story about some
fluzy at his
job. She didn't hear a word he said, but reading his
expressions,
she was able to throw in a "really! No way! Come on!" at
the right
time to keep him lying.
"You better
come on in the kitchen before our dinner get cold." She told
him. She caught
hold of his awaiting arm and together they entered the
kitchen.
Candlelight
illuminated the kitchen. They were nice and bright. The
table was
adorned with pink lace. Three deep red roses stood proudly in
a tall glass
vase. Two, square, red plates sat opposite each other on
the table
with red wine and a crystal flute. Mashed potatoes, beef roast
covered in
smoking brown gravy, glazed carrots and four asparagus
stalks.
A twinge of
guilt tugged at the pit of his stomach. His lovely wife
spent her
afternoon preparing a special diner for him and he spent his
rumpling sheets
with Candice. Candice is Taylor's assistant. There was
something
enticing about the way her dreads adorned her slender neck.
Maybe it was
the simple style she flaunted or that size 6 figure with
the "C" cup
breasts. He really didn't know, but whatever it was about
her, it started
a habitual twice a week rendezvous that left him guilt
ridden whenever
he looked into his wife's eyes.
Taylor perched
in his seat, watching as Stephanie sachet over to her
seat. He hadn't
noticed the sexy red dress his wife was wearing with a
high split
that displayed her curvy wide thigh and muscular calf.
Stephanie
was a full-figured woman, but every curve was in the right
place. He
loved watching her twist her rear-end when she walked. She
took a seat
across from him. Her eyes focused intently on him.
"What are you
thinking about?" he asked her, returning an endearing
gaze.
She smiled.
The light twinkled in her eyes mesmerizing him. She removed
her stare
and looked at her plate. The food was barely warm. That
reminded her
of just how long it took him to come in. She returned her
gaze.
"Everything looks lovely. I can't tell you how special you are to me."
His words made
her blood boil but she forced a smile. Her eyes glazed in
an attempt
to betray her.
"That's sweet
Taylor."
He lifted his
wine flute and held it up in front of him. Stephanie
followed suit.
"This is to
the three years you and I have spent together and the many
more we will
share together."
Stephanie wiped
her eye and tilted her glass to her lips. She swallowed,
half heartedly
because their marriage was a farce. She bashfully
returned her
glass to the table and lifted her fork. She scooped up some
mashed potatoes
and slid the creamy food into her mouth. Delicious, she
thought.
Taylor sliced
his steak and it was incredibly tender. When satisfied
with the bite-size
pieces, he scooped up some mashed potatoes then
pressed his
fork into a piece of steak then placed it into his mouth.
Devine, he
thought. Not even his mother could have made it better.
Stephanie
was beautiful in every way. She deserved better. He gave her
more than
enough money, but that didn't make up for the guilt he felt
when he cheated
on her. He worked some more food into his mouth.
"Do you love
me Taylor?" Stephanie asked him. There was something so
knowing in
her voice. He wondered what she would ask him next. Did she
now about
his escapes or was this just breaking-the-silence
conversation?
"Of course
honey, more than anything in the world."
"What if I
was maimed, disabled or even ugly?"
"Don't be silly.
You couldn't be ugly even if you wanted to."
"You didn't
answer my question."
"Honey, I'm
not being evasive, it's just that I don't see why you are
asking me
questions like this. I do love you and I don't know what would
happen if
you were different. I guess I would love you just as I do now.
Well, maybe
not if you became really ugly." He chuckled.
"That's not
funny. I mean it."
Taylor shoveled
the rest of his food into his mouth. He wanted to enjoy
the rest of
his meal before it took an uncertain spin.
"You know I've
been thinking. What if I dreaded my hair?"
He choked on
the wine he just poured into his mouth.
"Why would
you want to do something as dramatic as that?" He
straightened
himself in his seat wondering if she actually knew.
"I don't know.
It's different. I'm tired of this prissy look. I want
something
sassy. I think I need some pizzazz."
"Stephanie,
you've got pizzazz. There is nothing wrong with your look. I
love the way
you look. You're acting strange. Are you sure there isn't
anything wrong?"
"No. I guess,
I feel old and I wanted something to make me feel new
again. Why
are you making faces at me?"
"I'm not making
faces at you. I'm just wondering why you're asking all
these crazy
questions."
His cheeks
felt tight as though someone was pulling them. The sensation
reminded him
of the way he felt when his aunt Gwen used to pinch them
when he was
younger. His mouth bobbed as he started speaking and for
some odd reason,
he felt his saliva trickle down his cheek.
"Taylor, that's
disgusting." Stephanie remarked frowning at Taylor's
unusual behavior.
He chuckled.
Not believing that he had done that himself. Blaming the
incident on
her good cooking, he attempted to speak again, but again,
drool escaped.
Stephanie pushed
up from her seat and went to the sink. She pulled a
paper towel
from the roll and returned to the table and handed it o
Taylor.
"You want to
straighten that crazed look from your face and be serious?"
she asked
him. Her patience had run thin.
Taylor got
up from his seat and went to the bathroom. He didn't attempt
to say anything
else because the sensation had intensified so badly and
he needed
to take a look at his jaw, which felt really swollen. He
imagined that
a severe toothache would follow. His wisdom tooth had been
bothering
him lately and this was probably going to be another achy
episode. When
he reached the bathroom, he turned on the light and
stepped up
to the mirror over the sink. He squealed and hurried out the
bathroom and
back to the kitchen.
"Stephanie,
hurry, you've got to get me to the hospital." Taylor
screamed as
he was in full view of Stephanie.
"Oh my, God.
Taylor, what happened to you? What's wrong with your face?"
He fought back
the tears.
"I think I'm
having a stroke. Come take me to the hospital." He said,
using his
fingers to hold his face from twisting any further.
Stephanie hurried
out the door with Taylor. She took his car since it
was already
on the street. Speeding down the street, she glanced at
Taylor. The
sight of him was hideous, like something straight out of a
horror movie.
It only took
a few minutes for her to reach the nearby hospital. The two
of them rushed
into the emergency room. By the time they made it to the
triage window,
his cheeks were forcing his already chink eyes shut. The
nurse summoned
the doctor right away. After taking Taylor's vitals and
determining
that he was not having a stroke, the doctor pulled a few
tubes out
and took Taylor's blood. The blood was sent to the lab for
processing.
Taylor waited
in a sheeted off room with Stephanie at his side. He
believed that
he
was being punished for all that he had done to her and
that if he
didn't come clean, he would be disfigured so hideously that
no one would
want him.
"Stephanie."
He called, patting the bed so that she could come closer to
him. He knew
that this was the wrong time to bring up bad news, but if
he was going
to come through this, he would have to man up and tell her
the truth,
even if it meant losing her.
She moved very
close to him, pulling the chair with her so that she
could sit
at his side. He was frightening to look at, but she digested
her disgust
and tried to show just a little mercy. Of course, not even
two hours
ago, he told her that he would leave her if she was disfigured
and now look
at him. He was a typical man, always expecting the woman to
stick by him
no matter what.
"Stephanie,
I want you to know that I love you more than anything in the
world. You
are so special to me and I am proud to be with you. I know
that you are
the only woman who would stick by me in a time like this."
He paused,
swallowed, caught hold of her hand then continued... "I never
wanted to
hurt you, but sometimes, being a man causes us to do stupid
things."
"What are you
talking about Taylor?"
"Honey, I promise
you that as long as I live, I won't ever do anything
else to make
you unhappy. Anything you want, I will give it to you."
She listened
to him trying to gain pity for his cheating. He deserved
every bit
of what he got. God don't like ugly and sometimes, you just
got to show
a person how much you mean o them.
"I want so
much to tell you this, but I'm afraid of what you will say."
They doctor
entered the sectioned off room. He pulled back the curtain
and restored
their privacy.
"The results
of your test are back. Would you like your partner to hear
the results
as well?"
Taylor nodded.
He didn't want to keep her out of any other facet of his
life. Whatever
was happening to him, he wanted her to know and go
through it
with him.
"Yes, I want
her to stay. There is nothing about me I want kept from
her."
He acknowledged
his wish and opened his file.
"Mr. Grey,
your blood turned up with Syphilis. There is no cure for it,
but there
are medications to make the symptoms less painful or
debilitating."
Taylor shot
a glance over to Stephanie. Her anger was apparent and she
looked as
though she could kill him. She remained in her seat, but she
didn't stop
glaring at Taylor for even a moment. That bastard had no
idea about
the deadly baggage he had been carrying around. She found out
about it three
weeks ago when her lips started burning and leaking.
The doctor
cleared his throat. "I don't know what caused the
disfigurement
of your face. Nothing else showed up. I look like maybe a
pinched nerve.
There is nothing I can do about it, but it will probably
go away in
a few week or months. Something like this is uncertain, but
you are not
suffering from any brain damage or anything that resembles
stroke."
He handed him
a bottle of pills.
"These you
will need to take daily as prescribed on the bottle and your
partner will
have to be checked by her gynecologist to see if she is
symptomatic."
He looked behind him at Stephanie. Her complexion had
darkened and
her anger was evident.
"You can get
ready to go. Here are your discharge papers." The doctor
told him as
he left the room.
The room fell
silent with Stephanie glaring at him. Taylor's apologetic
look was infuriating.
She turned and walked away from him. When she was
halfway through
the corridor, Taylor caught up to her, shouting her
name.
"Stephanie
wait. Please give me a chance to explain."
She halted.
"What would you like to explain to me Taylor? You want to
tell me that
your sleeping around was an accident? Or that your lying to
me all this
time was a mistake?"
She bolted
through the doors and thank goodness they were self sliding
because she
would have broken the glass had she touched them, just as
she wanted
to do to Taylor.
"Oh, I know
what it is, you want to tell me that you didn't mean to hurt
me? That's
it right Taylor?"
"Stephanie,
you're right to be angry with me. I can't blame you, but I
honestly didn't
mean to bring you any harm. I made a mistake and I just
thought it
would go away. I have been trying to tell you about her all
night."
"Taylor, I've
been in on to your lies for three weeks. I know about you
and Candice
and definitely knew about this curse you bestowed on me. I
hate you Taylor.
I hate everything about you. You deserve everything you
got."
"You knew about
us and you didn't say anything."
"What did you
want me to say Taylor? That I was going to be a good wife
to you? That
I was going to work harder at making you happy? What didn't
I do for you?
You're selfish and I want you to know that you will never
be able to
do what you did to me to anyone else."
"What do you
mean?"
"Your face
will never return to that player's look. And your second head
will never
be buried into anyone else. You're worthless."
"You did this
to me?"
"You did this
to yourself and I hate you for it."
She turned
on her heels not saying another word.
"You did this
to me. You hurt me like this?"
"You got what
you deserved." She called back to him fingering for the
cab that was
passing by. She got in and the car pulled off."
Taylor chased
behind the cab telling her that she had the keys to his
car. About
three blocks away, she tossed them out into the street. When
she got home,
she packed her things, cleared the table and dishes. She
used bleach
to cleanse the dishes of all traces of the drug. You can't
cure what
you can't find. |